Patrol - 8/29/10

Working off some steam.  Will explain in a bit.  I found that when I'm angry I get the urge to do unacceptable things more.  I guess it is a side effect of the Demon Band.  And by unacceptable I mean I have greater violent tendencies.  Tonight I found myself kicking a man while he was down just to kick him.  So I stopped.  I'm going to start keeping a medkit on me after tonight though.  I split the guys skin above his eye.  He probably needed medical attention and stitches.  I jumped an upper class drug deal tonight so I think I will be set for a little while and I will at least be free to buy some gear.  Apparently Side Kick Guy is vending hero gear.  The drug dealer was dealing powder cocaine.  The white suit buying from him was paying $1.5k.  White suit came out of the alley behind the drug dealer and when I smacked down drug dealer, suit shot and grazed me.  I already hate bullet wounds more than anything else.  But I was mad and I could see he was getting ready to come around the corner, so I bashed him in the face with my shield.  I knocked the gun away with my bat when he hit the ground and started kicking him around.  This is when I realized I was enjoying it, and I can't have that.  I'm starting to put together more efficient ways to make money though.  I've decided if they have a gun, why not take the bullets with me.  I don't want to keep the gun and end up killing somebody or be an arms dealer, but gun shops buy bullets, so why not?  More so tonight I am getting the idea that I am expected.  That was the only light combat tonight.  I hit two other groups.  And I ended up making about $2k total.  I also picked up 42 bullets.  I need to learn how to sort bullets now.

I've been keeping things private with all my personal affairs since I don't want to make any enemies.  But I'm moving soon, so I'm going to be distanced from my people anyway, and I don't think anyone will learn about them.  The family is conflicted over my heading out.  Mom wants me to stay.  Dad thinks it is a great idea to go.  Woman doesn't want me to go.  But she also doesn't want to come with me.  I've kept her in the loop of what is going on, maybe not right from the beginning.  But she picked up on the bullet wounds since I was hiding out at her place instead of staying home.  I figured somebody would notice that, so the one who will keep my secret better was chosen.  I hope to stay in touch with her, but I think I am going to end up having to leave everything behind when I move.  I would like to keep them all anonymous in relation to me. Changing lives is a little stressful but I imagine it will get easier as it progresses.